Last night after I dropped the boys off, once again I found myself in prayer. Things seemed different this time around. As I was praying I was getting these chills going up and down my spine, like I was praying for the right things making the right call to God so to speak. I felt truly connected to the Creator and He was listening in. A little epiphany occurred again. Not on the scale that I have had previously, but it was still there. As I was praying, God just spoke inside me. "Things will work out... trust in me." I firmly believe this. Removing the distractions of my life has granted me an amazing connection with God, that I can't even begin to explain it. God wouldn't give me this test again if He did not want me to fully trust in Him. Last time I went through this I had doubts, serious doubts about the outcome. I didn't know if I was going to end up alone. I didn't know if I was going even be able to overcome what had happened. This time, I know the answer. God is in control of all of this, He already knows the outcome. This test, I barely passed last time, if not for my mentor I would not have gotten through it. This time, I am going to pass it with flying colors. My mentor, my counselor, the men in my bible study group, the people from banquet, they are all my prayer warriors. They are what helps strengthen me when I feel my weakest, they help me endure everything that is being launched my way, they bolster my faith that God is for me not against me. I firmly believe that God will repair this and bring restoration. In His time.
Today was an amazing day for me. I woke up this morning feeling different. I had no control, God had it all in his hands. I picked up the boys this morning and brought them to church with me. The joy I felt. Here I was, the new me, helping usher these amazing little men towards the amazing grace that is Christ. As I dropped Caleb and Zeke off in their respective areas, I just felt this huge smile come over my face. I am doing it, and I am doing it right. It just amazes me how far I have come in such a short time, and that Caleb and Zeke want to be with me on this journey. (Well Caleb still isn't a fan of church but I keep reminding him, "Give it a chance buddy, trust me its gonna be awesome!!") I moved into the area where the adults worship, and I just felt these chills come over me again. God was with me, at my side. He is guiding me in the right direction, this was reaffirmed when I saw Gary Germann. He looked at me and just said, "Wow. There is something different about you. The Holy Spirit is alive in you like I've never seen. You will be a beacon and others will flock to you. Keep the faith Mitchell, things are already changing and you don't even realize it." To be told I am a beacon of faith, that, that was beyond amazing. I have been called many things, most of them bad, but through it all for this man in Christ to look at me and see that within me, just wow. The service was the conclusion of the sermon series on being a Christian. I felt chills during the entire service, I am in the right place at the right time, God is truly guiding my life to His will. I have hope, and where there is hope there is faith, and where there is faith miracles happen. The Holy Spirit is moving through me in ways that I yet do not understand. All of this is His works through me, and my unfailing trust in God. Glory to Him!!
Lastly, I found out that I am going to be a table leader for banquet in the spring. I am overly excited to begin preparations for that weekend in April. I know the miracles that come from banquet, I am one of them. I am honored to be part of it, to help guide these men into a new spiritual awakening in their lives. The work the men and women do through Christ during banquet lights fires that were once dormant or even extinguished. I am truly blessed to be apart of it. God has me moving in the right direction, and soon he will turn this storm into a calm current. I believe this. The Holy Spirit is already at work, I know this because of my getting a job so that I can provide for my family and myself. The Holy Spirit will bring repair and restoration, that too I firmly believe. Lastly, the Holy Spirit will continue to use me as a beacon to attract others to the amazing grace that is Christ. Everything is in His time. Thanks be to God!!
I look forward to writing again in November. The Holy Spirit will continue to work through me, and I will continue to draw closer to Christ everyday. I am going to stay in prayer always, and I believe God will right everything. I trust. I believe. I am strengthened even when I am weary. I fight for those that I love. God is in control. Amen!!!
Psalm 139: 7 - 12
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
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